State of Mind (Part 20)

No one ever talked to me about Depression.

It was only brought to my attention during doctors' visits.

One face after another… smiling.

I assume that is what happiness should look like.

All the way to a blank expression and a frown.

But it’s never explained.

What is happiness supposed to feel like and how long is it supposed to last?

Is it constant? Does it happen in spurts?

Because I’ve experienced it from time to time… but it doesn’t last.

There is such an empty feeling inside of me.

And I can’t describe what it feels like anymore.

I’m overwhelmed by how often it happens.

Overwhelmed by the fact that I have people around me who love and care for me but I still feel like this.

Is it selfish for me to feel this empty when there are people who have less than I do?

I have my own car, three jobs, a loving family, and a roof over my head.

Some people don’t even have a place to lay their heads at night… so how is it that I’m so empty when I have so much?

How can I fix it?